Life begins and ends, ends and begins, perpetual cycles of birth, life, death, rebirth and here we are at a collective end-beginning. Winter is over and Spring begins on March 20th this year, 5:34 p.m. Eastern time (while we typically look to the 21st as the date of Equinoxes and Solstices, due to the fact that we have 365 ¼ days in every year, the Equinoxes and Solstices can happen between the 19th-23rd in any given year). The Spring Equinox, known as the time of fertile beginnings, notates the day, as does the sign Aries, which begins upon that day. It is the Astrological New Year and the start of Ostara on the seasonal wheel. It’s too bad our modern calendars don’t go by season, because technically the Winter is not a strong time to “begin” something. The real beginning is Spring. I wish our calendar New Year began in March along with the cycles of our planet. To me, we are just finishing up Winter 2022/2023. Therefore, if you haven’t yet dug into your 2023 goals, resolutions and objectives, this is your major pivot point. It’s now or never - time to grab 2023 by the shoulders and tell it - “Let’s Go!” I’ll be hosting a live Zoom meditation and ceremony for solidifying our Spring Equinox intentions (see details below)!
Before you spark the ignition, take a moment to look under the hood. Reflect, determine next steps, visualize, solidify, then make a real plan of action, pen to paper (or hand to keyboard)!
Upon reflection, I can see that part of me has been stuck in the same mental cycle for 20-ish years now. Hard to say it because I have had tremendous growth and emotional evolution, but it’s only been the tip of the proverbial iceberg. There is so much more under the surface that is coming out now that I can hardly believe I’ve held onto it so long. In your 20s you tend to believe you have all the time in the world to live up to your potential and achieve your dreams. You figure, “by the time I’m 40, I’ll be set.” LOLOLOL! Of course it is absolutely possible to be professionally successful and personally fulfilled by or before then, but the journey is really only hitting its stride and by then, it’s the perfect time to recalibrate and pivot. You cut your teeth in your 20s and 30s but by your 40s you’re willing to stop holding yourself to some vision you had of who were going to be by 40, because you’ve had enough experience to understand that you will reinvent yourself over and again, and if you don’t, you’re likely standing still, stuck in some way. Of course, no one tells you all that when you’re growing up. They tell you when you’re 20 that you have “plenty of time” for all the things you want to do. Enjoy your youth while you have it, etc. etc. They don’t tell you that the 30s can be some of your most difficult years and that life never stops coming at you, but that it does get easier because with experience comes wisdom. So I’m telling those younger ones (under 30) now - life is a journey, not a destination. Roll your eyes if you must, but the sooner you accept this and stop desiring perfect outcomes, the less pain you’ll feel in life. We are programed by society to believe there is some sort of “finish line” to life, that if we just get the love of our lives, the job, the money, the body, the house, car, kids, vacations, etc., then we have reached “fulfillment” but what fulfills you now may not fulfill you as you get older. You may want more. You will not the same person you were then, and that becomes obvious at every new decade.
A deeper connection to Self and Spirit tends to repeat for me. It has always been there, it’s how I’m wired, yet now is the time in life where I have no choice but to face the music, so to speak. I’m honestly looking at what I am doing to hold myself back and what I can be proud of that I’ve accomplished thus far in life (even if it doesn’t feel like it’s nearly enough yet). What is the rest of my life going to look like?
I’ve been feeling a lot of angst. Some of it is my life cycle and the celestial transits that have come at this age range in my life (38-45) and some of it is the collective shifts happening, complete with an uneasiness from the mind of humanity. I’m examining my old vision of me, what I still want to do that has always been inside me and what things I no longer need to hold onto because I am not 25-year-old me. Writing, helping people FEEL something real and open their hearts to more love, connection and compassion for themselves and all humanity. That is something I have always wanted to do, since I devoured books as a child and became touched by the stories of others.
How I do that, the way in which I connect is still strong in me - words, writing, talking, telling stories - but the I find that I’ve adjusted my vibe, the way I want to reach people is different because of technology changes and cultural shifts. I’ve just been hiding out, afraid of showing all of me. Giving myself permission to put it out there and not worry about haters is where I am now. I always thought I was fearless but that isn’t true. I’ve wanted to control perceptions, how I’m seen and received, yet that is impossible. People are going to think what they think. We cannot control that, but we can learn how to surrender control and accept what IS and there is such a thing as both/and. I can be both fearless and fearful, I can both put myself out there and wish that I could stay hidden. I can be both wise and mistaken. All of our reality is based on both/and, not either/or. What is your both/and? What both/and have you been resisting? Are you tired of resistance? What would flow look like for you?
The beginning of Spring, Ostara and longer days start with Aries. The Gateway to Expansion is Open! Aries, ruled by Mars, keeper of the 1st house of identity, is made of Fire like that internal fire within. It is the part in us that says - I AM - I am doing this, I am moving forward on something regardless, I am leading the charge. Not only is the Sun moving into Aries upon the Equinox on March 20th, but the New Moon (dark sky, time to plant seeds) will also be in Aries a day later. That is auspicious indeed! We are getting amped up, all that fiery OOMPH we needed to push past limitations and go for what we want most has arrived! Yet it won’t work well without a plan, of course, and not without clarified intention.
Did you know that thoughts and words have immense power? They create our reality. That’s why they call it “spelling” because words are like casting spells into the Universe, telling it what experience you want to have. The Universe doesn’t judge, it simply supports you. How is your self talk? Do you think and speak in pessimistic, defeatist ways or do you affirm what you want in positive ways? If you think badly of yourself and others, Universe will support that vision. You don’t have to believe it, but it’s very true. We are all entangled, science is just now catching up to that fact. Be mindful of your words. If you speak negatively, replace it with something positive. Affirm the good in you and in the world!
What are you examining about your life right now? What feelings come up for you when you think about how you speak to yourself? What thoughts come up when you consider renewal and New Beginnings? What areas can you be honest about that you are putting off dealing with? What areas are you ready to take on right now? What goals can you set that you can practically achieve this year and what Magick would you like to see happen? You have all the power within your own mind, body, heart and Soul to make your dreams come true, and to help cultivate more Light in the World.
Join me this Sunday, March 19th, 2023 for a short guided meditation and intention setting ceremony to Light Your Inner Fire and Open Your Heart to New Beginnings!
INVITATION!
At every Equinox and Solstice, I do a powerful meditation and intention setting complete with ceremony and symbolism. This year I am hosting an event at my home and virtually on Zoom. You are welcome to join me for a Spring Equinox Group Meditation and Intention Ceremony on Sunday, March 19th, 3:30 p.m. Mountain Time. It will be recorded and sent to all who register with the link below.
Let’s plant our Seeds of Intention together upon the Spring Equinox and commune with the Light! I look forward to sharing and connecting with you! Love, Holli
Spring Equinox Meditation - Event Registration Link: https://on.zoom.us/ev/ArqIDzsIRbUZHZqr_vhv8r2ddTvJQRPhiSvAR_ALcvqShff1NF8d~AggLXsr32QYFjq8BlYLZ5I06Dg
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Images
* Goddess Statue [H. Newberry/Pixabay]
* Aries Zodiac [Dorothe + Darkmoon_Art/Pixabay]
* Peony opening [vargazs/Pixabay]
* Fairy Dust [Dana Conditt/Pixabay]